Crush On Someone

        Do you have crush on someone? For sure as a normal human being we should have a crush on our daily life. Crushing on somebody is different from loving someone. of course, everyone knows that. Everyone has their own stories to tell and i just want to share my experiences to help realize what a crush and love is.

        My stories started in Tawau when i was in secondary high school. This was my first time in my life. I was in form three at that time and first it wasn't that serious, and in time it will faded away. Her name was Bella. She had long brown hair that was just a little wavy, and big chestnut eyes that didn't seem to line up with her tomboy personality. She was a gym teacher's daughter, and a year older than me and i thought she was incredibly grown up. Bella was form four and i was form three. This is called a "CRUSH".

        My last year in secondary high school came. It was all casual at first, but when she was started sitting in front of me, everything was changed. During my vacant time, i would eventually end up chatting with her. One day, when i was walking back home, i saw her and i think this was the right time for me to tell her about my felling. So i meet her and started a conversation, i wanted to be honest to her about my felling  , all my words come out from my mouth is  sincerly deepth from my heart and her reaction was beyond suprising. She said she liked me before too !. Started from that day, she always sticks with me whereever i go. When my best friend was go to toilet, she came and sat beside me and i started to get know her more. Firstly, we were like bestfriends, but day to day we become very closer. She was actually sweet,funny n cute. Although she was hot-tempered, i still love her because "Perfect person dosen't exist".

        Next, after know her about 3 months, i know she loved me truly, i can see through her eyes. She made my day full with happiness, she change my attitude from lazy to become a good person. Everyday she give me advice, she guide me and that make more happy go to school. Since i know her, i never absent class, and i never didn't do my homework. For sure as a normal man, we will shy if our teacher scold us infront of the girl that we love. So since i know her, my attitude changed 360 degree from bad and lazy person to a nice n good person.

       I sad to tell but my story dosen't have a happy ending that you're expecting. Eveything was changed in only one second,when my bestfriend told me that she already engaged. At that time, i mad, i didn't trust my friend until i see it with my eyes. After that, i feel like wanna die, i feel im useless to live now, i feel really dissapointed. Because she was engaged with my friend from child until now, his name was Henry, i really shocked, i really nt expecting Henry will do this to me, everything happened in one second, i cant think anymore, my heart was empty, i dunno what i should do now,but i must accept the fact that she already belongs to someone. After this happen, i didnt trust love anymore, "True Love Dosen't Exist'.

        In my conclusion, having a crush is normal for human being but sometimes crush can changed your attitude from bad to a good person or good to bad person. All depends on yourself, if you want make crush as your key to success in life or make crush just for blind love and destroy your future. And lastly, if you love, no matter how the slim chance are, you will wait for someone to love you back. For the first time or second time, you will wait even it hurts you. In vain, or a great hope, you will never forget it. You will wait it until the miracle comes even it takes forever. I hope you enjoy read my experiences, sincerly from depth of my heart, you can take for your knowledge so you wont regret later.